BAT MESSIAH

Heed this warning. Change is coming. I've had enough.

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 31 Dec 2007 16:37:53 GMT

I'm finally too angry.

Being torn apart in a never ending tunnel,
Surrounded by shadows that drown the light,
Even if there were light at the end of this tunnel,
My eyes are too weak, too blind to see it,
The floors, trudging through mud, deeper as I struggle,
All reprise, yet no relief for the weak and broken.

He is with me. He is me. He has solutions.
My solutions are filled with cowardice and shame,
Band aid solutions to fix severed limbs,
Come to me, whisper sweet lies in my ears,
Fill me with hope. Promise me. Trust me.
Yet I still march through these tombs.
Carrion covers the floor, though I thought I was safe.

All I am is a pile of skin,
A mess of meat and bone.
Who am I? Just a child trying to hide.
Just a kid, scared of change, forced into a maze.
My back, littered with scars,
Knives intact from many years past,
But many are still fresh, sweet with blood.

So grab your salt and rub it in my wounds,
Remind me I haven't quite died.
Just heed this warning, for it is my last.
I'm too weak, too exhausted to hold it back.
He has spoken. He is here. It is too late.

The carrion is walking.

Christmas 1 of 4 complete...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Sun, 23 Dec 2007 17:03:44 GMT

So, my first Christmas is done. I spent the night at my Mom's house last night with her boyfriend Ray and had a great time!

Got me some new clothes, and a new 22" Samsung LCD Monitor, just the one I wanted! Woot!

Still in Salem at the moment, but I'll be home tonight.

1 down, 3 to go. So far, so good!

I got me some epics...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 17 Dec 2007 17:55:08 GMT

I have nothing but epics on, except for my belt. Mwahahaha

Are the withdrawls over yet?

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 12:19:13 GMT

Good fucking god, I never thought that video game addiction was real.

Finally, after 2.5 years of playing WoW, I think I have finally broke the icy curse it had on my soul. I logged in for a few minutes last weekend, and couldn't play. I just could not muster up the energy, or mental power to play. I just felt sickly and anxious as I started walking around. I mean, seriously, I've spent 2.5 years in the same game engine, and everything looks mighty bland nowadays.

So, I've got my new drug of choice coming at the end of the month. Hellgate London. I've been in the beta the past month and leveled a Guardian up to the current end of the beta, and I have to say, its definately going to be awesome.

A casual online hack and slash game made by the original Diablo team, with constant gear and visual updates? Count me fucking in!

I just hope the eventual PvP is somewhat awesome.

SKELERATUS DEMO!

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 13:00:15 GMT

This is a demo of the new band Skeleratus Dylan and I formed.

WOO!

Comments?

Party this SATURDAY NIGHT!

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Wed, 05 Sep 2007 10:55:14 GMT

Party, this coming Saturday Night at our place! Its gonna be a pillow/blanket fort party, so you had all better watch out or what not cause there is going to be one giant fort.

If you don't know where we live, its 2675 NE Lancaster, Apartment #9 in the North Pointe apartment complex. Its behind the Pepsi plant, off of Jack London, which is off of Walnut. Really, its hard to miss. Take the first entrance.

FUCKING BLANKET FORT PARTY BITCHES!!!

EPIC - Click on it, I dare you...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Wed, 08 Aug 2007 16:02:16 GMT

Yeeeha...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 06 Aug 2007 10:49:35 GMT

Well, I'm back in EDM at work again. I got bumped back down to EDM now that we have a fully trained supervisor, so until someone above me quits or goes into an apprentice program, I'm in here. Yeah, I got a $2.30 an hour pay cut, but I'm still making $16 an hour. Still working graves, but hell, I have weekends off again, so I can go out and PARTY!

Its been a while since my last post, but there really hasn't been much to say. Stephy got a new job, and it seems like she actually enjoys it, especially after the comment she made earlier today about being bored and wishing she was at work.

We just recently bought a Nintendo Wii, and I'm really loving it. I really like the control mechanics and what not, and the new Paper Mario and Zelda games are pretty rad.

On Saturday, my brother and I had some actual bonding time for once. We went and hiked all around Mary's Peak and brought Sid along. We got a bunch of photos and what not, so I think I will post them when I get them from my dad's camera.

And on another happy note, I just ordered my new computer! Its got a nice 2.6 ghz Core Duo 2 in it, 2 gigs of RAM, a Radeon 1950 Pro with 512mb of memory, and a cool 500 gig SATA hard drive. It should be here thursday afternoon, and it was practically free. Bought it on credit, with a 6 month same as cash program, which I will use a fraction of our tax returns to pay off when the time comes.

And as for life in general, its pretty damn good. Steph and I spent most of the day watching "Dead Like Me", reminding myself that besides my stress at work, general day to day money stress and what not will ultimately be over come the beginning of next month, namely the 10th, when Steph gets her first full paycheck. Though I'm losing money going back to EDM, Steph's job will more than make up for it, plus an additional $400-500 a month, which can go right into savings!

Well, I gotta get back to work. Its nice having an internet connection at work. I can actually find time to update during my breaks!

Kids...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Sun, 10 Jun 2007 17:34:52 GMT

So, I was at a party last night, not that I particularly wanted to be there, but I was there non the less.

There was this guy there, who was in a "band" (ooooooh) and thought very highly of himself. He was the most pretentious, wannabe-worldly person I've ever seen in the flesh. When in a crowded room, he said "Namaste" to someone and I about died laughing. Funny thing is, there was another guy in the room who was like "Whats your name?" and gave me a high five. He made a comment about how the kid was trying to sound worldly, and I said that a worldly person wouldn't use a douche bag word like Namaste to impress people. Then he said something that made me give him a high five. "People tell me I'm a pessimist, but I'm not, I'm just a realist". Fuck yeah dude, fuck yeah.

So then, this kid starts spouting off about how successful his band is going to be, and all this fun jazz, and then I break it to him. There is no money to be made in the music industry, its pretty plain to see, unless you wanna form yourself around a cookie cutter image that a producer throws you through. The only way to make ANY money in the music business is based around 1 thing, and one thing only. Being in the right place at the right time, well, and not suck.

So, he tried arguing with me, telling me I'm wrong, and don't know what I'm talking about. What a fucking moron. I asked him how old he was, 23, and explained to him that I had been at it quite a bit longer, and after he plays, say, his 50th show (about to play their first non-house party show) he can come back and give me some advice, but kid, STFU until you actually know.

Then again, apparently this kid is one of Klyph's friends, and has that same stupid ass "we gotta revamp the corvallis scene" mentality. Dude, Corvallis is too fucking small, and lacks proper venues to have a scene. Playing at Ragin Cajun and Fox and Firkin is not revamping the scene.

I can't wait until the new band has enough material to play a show.

Oh yeah, any suggestions for names for the new band?

Fuck Yeah.

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Thu, 07 Jun 2007 11:27:09 GMT

Woo, I got some new gear tonight!

Extree? More like Sextree...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 04 Jun 2007 05:08:32 GMT

Well, thats Extree in his current state. Unbuffed, he has around 600 spell power. And yes, he has Arena gear too. Now to get my PvP hunter to 70...

VOTE VOTE VOTE!

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Wed, 23 May 2007 16:21:25 GMT

Vote for the FireMan!

So, this guy is a total nerd metal head and is trying to get on the next season of "I Love New York", and somethingawful has chosen him to go on the show, and have had a massive voting campaign for this guy. He is the complete opposite of what has been on that show in the past. I hope he makes it, as of right now he is #3 for votes in this second round of voting.

Life Skills

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Sun, 13 May 2007 16:18:50 GMT

I've figured it all out... Finally!

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Sat, 12 May 2007 15:51:07 GMT

I figured it all out today, and figured out what was wrong. Apparently, I care too much.

Namely, about my job and how well the fiber is running. I somehow feel that my sole quest in life is to keep our fiber running within control limits at all times possible. I'm personally bugged when the tensile strength of a certain fiber grade constantly runs out of spec for multiple shifts, and feel I should be doing all I can possibly do to get it running back in spec, and all I can really do is bug the operators and my supervisor until they get it back in spec, since I'm just the Process Control Tech. I feel like such a pest sometimes.

My god, they are going to haaaaaate me when I become operator trained/qualified. I'm gonna wanna tweak all the buttons to get it all fine tuned.

I think I'm just trying to do my best to impress everyone, since the posting for the four Process Control Engineer jobs are opening up, which will be outside the union salaried jobs, replace our current Process Tech jobs. I really, really, really want one of those engineering jobs. One of the job requirements is either a degree in chemical engineering, or 3 years experience in a quality control environment. Well, 6 months at my current job, and 2.5 years in Laser Ablation at HP, doing Production, Proto, and QC work. I know how to do it, I know how to analyze the numbers, I just kind of feel it a little too much.

I feel I'm good at what I do, and want to excel as much as I can in this field.

Now, to stop caring.

Fuck God.

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 07 May 2007 15:42:17 GMT

Fuck you and your religion. Fuck your god.

Is it such a hard concept to grasp that people were fucking retarded 2000 years ago and thought that nature was controlled by a higher power? Is empirical evidence not enough? Oh, god is testing your faith. I see.

Jesus? We call them street magicians these days. The bible? Just one big fairy tale.

Fuck you and your salvation. Fuck heaven. Fuck hell. Why? They don't exist. Man made up god to give themselves a purpose to live, and to not be afraid of dying. Know what my purpose in life is? To reproduce, like any other animal.

I'm afraid of dying, like most people. I'm not afraid of the pain, for I hope I go quickly when my time comes, I'm afraid I'll be alone, but thats something I'll never know.

When I die, I want to rest. When I go, I'm done. I don't want an eternity in Heaven. I want to be put in a box, and buried in the ground.

Know what the best part about dying is going to be? The part where I'm being eaten by worms and turn into a skeleton.

On a different note, wouldn't it be fucking scary if spiders had wings, and could fly? I'd never sleep again...

What. The. Fuck?

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Tue, 24 Apr 2007 00:46:12 GMT

Wow, I almost got stabbed today.

By a complete stranger non-the less in the Payless Shoe Store parking lot.

So, Steph and I were heading there from downtown, and turned in front of Hollywood video, and pulled into the far right lane. After crossing 4th street and about half way to 9th street, this kid in a Mercedes Benz looking car swerves in behind me erratically and flips me off. I'm like, okay, WTF?

So, he follows me super close all the way up 9th street, and I pull into the Payless Shoe Store, and give him a nice big finger as he passes, and then what does the dumb ass do? He pulls onto the street between the shoe store and good will and then uses the second entrance to pull up. He doesn't park, he just gets out of his car. I'm almost into the store, as I see the kid coming at me at a fast pace with a fucking knife.

A FUCKING KNIFE. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING, KID?

I yell to Steph to call 911, and she does. I start yelling at the kid "You wanna get arrested for menacing with a deadly weapon, asshole?"

He puts the knife away, since he seemed to have no intention on really using it, at which point I get in the kids face, and start screaming. If any of you have heard my band live, you know I can fucking scream and growl like the best of them, and this kid was getting it straight to his FACE!

He keeps saying "Sir! Please stop yelling!" as I kept yelling "There is NO SIR HERE YOU FUCKING MORON. WHAT ARE YOU FUCKING THINKING ASS HOLE" and many other expletives, including, but not limited to "Douche Hole", "Cunt Magnet", and "Fucktard". I tried to keep him there as long as possible, but I got his liscence plate number and such. The cops showed up minutes later (Wow, the CPD are fast) and I talked to them for some time.

The kid was around 18, about 5'6", scrawny with buzzed hair. Straggly teeth, and was missing at least one of his front teeth. The car was a black mercedes looking car with the plates 946 BWY.

I hope they catch the fucker, cause I wanna press charges.

That was fun.

It has been far too long...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 23 Apr 2007 16:11:33 GMT

Wow, its been over 4 months since and update, and a lot has happened. Some good, some bad.

On the bad side, my dad sold his house, and not because he wanted to. He was in sooo much debt for soooo many years, that it came to the point that he had to sell his house back to the bank, and make very little off of it. Better yet, he told us about it 2 days before he needed to be completely moved out, and if you knew my old house, it was a huge 3 story home with a crap ton of stuff. Those 2 days were very, very hard, both mentally and physically. Seeing my child hood home go was a bit devastating, but it had to happen.

Since Wes is setting off for the military here soon, it seems Fusion Ball as it has been for the past 9 years is fading away. We had a great run, 3 albums, too many shows to count, and a lot of fans and praise over the years. We never made it big, but we had fun, and truly, thats all that matters. That doesn't mean I'm giving up on music by any chance. Dylan and I are now practicing with 2 guitar players, and I've switched over to bass, and are forming a more metal-centric band that has yet to be named. We are still in the very early stages of writing, but we already have 1 song hashed out pretty well, and hope to be playing a show here in the up coming months.

Stephy and I also just recently moved into a much nicer and bigger apartment. It was a pain moving and all, but well worth it. Having 2 bedrooms, a full kitchen, new carpet, and walls that aren't paper thin are more than worth the $70 more a month we have to pay.

Also, did I mention I got a new job at Evanite? I'm now the graveyard Quality Control Technician, and I'm grossing a whopping $18.05 an hour. Pretty damn good for someone with just a high school diploma, and a bit of college.

Speaking of college, I'm deciding to change majors. I've been business for several years now, but what do you do with a business degree? You become middle management and hate your life, or start a business, neither of which I want to do. I was computer science, but I don't enjoy programming, so what kind of degree would I enjoy doing? I can't believe its taken me this long to realize it... God damnit, I'm switching to Engineering. Not sure what I will focus in, prolly mechanical engineering, but damn, I don't know why engineering had never crossed my mind in the past...

And to all the LJ haters that have been posting on my wife's journal, FUCK OFF. You see, there are people out there that don't think my wife and I should have kids, namely because they are either against having children all together, or don't know us well enough to even pass judgment. If you have any doubts in our child rearing skills, or don't think we are ready to have children, go over to shit land, er, I mean Albany and sit in the food court at the Heritage Mall and watch all the champions of the gene pool scarf down food alongside their 7 children, and then tell us that we are going to be horrible parents when we have our 2. Bad parents generally don't plan on having children, they just end up popping out 5 on accident. Have I ever used food stamps? No. Do I have insurance? Yes, great health, dental, vision, and pharmaceutical. Do I make good money? Not the best, but more than enough to raise a child. Do I have a huge heart capable and willing to love a child more than anything else in this world? I sure think so.

And now, I have to rant about todays popular music. Seriously, what the hell people? What has happened to popular music? Rock radio is fucking horrible, and pop radio is even worse. Music has become so obviously shallow, soulless and hollow that turning on MTV or KSUK makes me want to vomit. Gwen Stefani, The Pussycat Dolls, Fergi, My Chemical Romance, AFI, Young Joc, Diddy, Linkin Park, Nickel Back, Young Jeezy, and Fall Out Boy, I'm calling you out. You all fucking suck, and bring nothing, and I mean NOTHING to the table. Your degenerating music even more so than it already was.

What happened to all the guitar gods? What happened to the timeless bands of years past, and where are their modern counterparts? If I'm still hearing the same overplayed, washed up Nickel Back song on a classic rock station 15 years out, I'm gonna be pissed. Do you know what happened to these bands, especially the ones with true talent and writing skill? They allllllll went to Metal or Jazz. If you know anything about musical composition and want your brain not to fry when being force fed catchy 2 note singles, you turn to these genres. Metal has swallowed all the musical talent, and I'm happy about it.

Gojira, for example, at first seems very basic, from a metal standpoint, but after listening time and time again, you start picking up on the subtleties that make them great. Their concept album "From Mars to Sirius" is just amazing, from start to finish. Not only do they have great Doom Metal riffs, they mix it with progressive death metal concepts, and have one of the beefiest guitar tones I've ever heard. Alongside damn good growl/scream/melodic vocals, and lyrics that use "Flying Whales" as a metaphor for god, or higher powers, it makes them one of the premier metal bands on the scene.

It really sickens me when people link Metal with the likes of Marilyn Manson, Linkin Park, Disturbed, or Satanism. Metal as a whole is not Satanic, while there are some sub genres that do touch upon the subject, namely Black Metal, but Metal fans usually steer away from that. Marilyn Manson has given the whole scene a bad name, since that ass hat went around doing his shock rock crap, everyone thinks metal is about satanism and scary stage shows. For example, the last show I went to (Gojira, Lamb of God, Machine Head, and Trivium), proves that Metal shouldn't be lumped into the whole "shock rock" genre. You goto metal shows to show respect, and leave in awe of the pure musical talent you just saw. Seeing Willy Adler, Mark Morten, and Matt Heafy play guitar is more than I could ever want in a live show, other than maybe seeing Alexi Laiho tossed in for good measure.

Now, don't forget that I am far from uneducated when it comes to music, so my opinions do have backing. I have 13 years of classical training, 6 on the Piano, 7 on the Clarinet. I was second chair in the CV wind ensemble, and competed in several sight reading competitions on the Clarinet. I've played in a hard rock/metal band for the past 9 years, so I know the ins and outs of the music industry, and have seen its ugly under belly. I also performed in an award winning 6 piece Clarinet group, and performed in a marching band for 3 years (one year we took state), and even won the DaVinci Days battle of the bands with my band.

I'd like to go further, and explain my loves for modern Jazz, but I'm fucking tired, and need to goto bed, but if you want some great Jazz guitar, go listen to Pat Methany. He is fucking amazing, and when I mean fucking amazing, I mean it.

Modern Rock is dead. Long live Metal.

And Jazz (without Kenny G)

The Expansion! It is coming!

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 22:49:06 GMT

With the expansion here in 2 days, this is the last time I'm gonna post a picture of Extree at 60. He is the only member of the guild <Holy Diver>. Ronnie James Dio would be proud. I've had fun at 60, with 18 days played at 60 on Extree, and now it is time to say good bye to the World of Warcraft we once knew, and welcome in the expansion and pray that it doesn't break the game.

ONWARD BATTLECAT, TO LEVEL 70!

Don't fucking forget...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Sun, 07 Jan 2007 01:08:07 GMT

PAJAMA PARTY AT OUR HOUSE AT 8PM!

CALLING EVERYBODY.

You should come, really!

Check last post for directions!

PA PA PA PA~

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Fri, 05 Jan 2007 22:04:38 GMT

PAJAMA PARTY!

Our house, Saturday night, 8PM! Wear some plaid pajamas or something, bring some booze or bevarage or what nots and come party it up in our pajamas! WOO!

PJ ! PJ ! PJ ! ?

Respond to RSVP. ANYONE AND EVERYONE ON MY FRIENDS LIST IS INVITED.

4002 Witham Hill Oaks Apt. 97
Very end of walnut, take a right, then a left into the first witham hill oaks driveway.

Well shit...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Mon, 01 Jan 2007 13:58:54 GMT

Seems its officially 2007 now. My new years went by without a bang. Woke up at 11:10PM and went to work. Just around midnight I was starting up my EDM machines. Yay.

I came to a realization tonight that will be helping me for quite some time. That realization is that "Everything is going to be okay". It seems no matter how little money we have, we can pull through. And you know what? At this point in time I finally hit the flat spot. The stretch where you can be okay, when everything is semi-normal and there aren't any large speed bumps ahead. I've hit the salt flats, and they are good.

I always think about what I don't have, and what I need, but then I always forget to look at what I have, and what I really don't need. I've got an amazing loving wife who does a shit ton for me, I've got a decent paying job and a new job and a raise on the way, I have my somewhat decent health, I have food to eat, toys to play with, a roof over my head, and a Dog that grew up to become my best friend. I've got everything I need plus some, and now that I realize this, I feel quite content with my life.

Of course in the somewhat near future we will be moving to a new place, thinking about babies, whatever else the future might hold.

On a seperate, more technical note, I have to say that I have no clue how to configure any sort of wireless network. To me, wireless networks use advanced forms of witchcraft and magic to make those magical packets float invisibly through the air.

I assume, since my laptop has a built in networking card, I could just buy a WAP and attach it to my router. Seems a bit more simple than trying to connect my laptop to my main PC using an old shitty wireless card, in an attempt to network in Ad Hoc mode.

Also, just barely over 2 weeks til the Burning Crusade. Hopefully I'll get my 5 day weekend so I can play the shit out of this the instant it comes out. Ugh, spending $120 to upgrade all of our accounts is going to suck.

Why me?

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Thu, 28 Dec 2006 09:28:32 GMT

Year end inventory in my EDM shop. No room for error. Accountants looking at my numbers at 8AM. Its 2AM and I'm almost half way done, but the hardest part is still on the horizon.

Yet again I ask, Why Me?

Christmas is over...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Wed, 27 Dec 2006 13:43:10 GMT

And I'm back at work. Did I really just have 4 days off? Doesn't feel like I did at all.

I made out really well this Christmas and ended up getting a hell of a lot more than I expected or deserved. Here is a list of what I got :

Magnavox 32" LCD HDTV (Mom)
Wolf FPS Gaming Keboard/Controller (Mom)
Logitech G15 Gaming Keyboard (Dad)
Norelco Electric Razer (In laws)
Laptop Case (that is too small for our monstrous laptop)(Dad)
Wireless Mouse for Laptop (Bro)
Plus clothes, socks, underwear, slippers, pajamas, and gift cards galore.

We ended up going to Freddie's today and picking up a Black and Decker dust buster, a wired XBox 360 controller (for use on my PC too), and an HDMI cable so we can hook up the laptop to the new 32" LCD.

On a side note, yesterday while at my dad's house, my step-sister's husband asked me to look at their 1 year old laptop and see if I could figure out why it was so slow. Well, the damn thing only had 256mb of RAM in it, and the graphics card in it didn't have any memory on the actual card, so it leeches an addiational 64mb of RAM from the system memory, leaving them a whopping 192mb of RAM to try and run XP with. I told him he should go buy a 512 stick and throw it in there to increase the performance drastically. Man, who buys a computer with less than 512mb of RAM these days? My laptop came with 1gb of RAM, and I feel that I undercut it by not getting 2gb of RAM...

THANK FUCKING SOME HIGHER POWER OR SOMETHING

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Thu, 21 Dec 2006 18:24:46 GMT

I fixed my previously bricked laptop.

The problem? The god damn bios battery. I had tried everything, given up in desperation, and decided to yank it as a last hope, and amazingly it worked.

I'm actually posting this from the laptop, which is currently sitting on our kitchen counter, having World of Warcraft installed on it. So far, I'm pretty damn happy with the thing, besides the shitty tech support and the initial bios battery problem.

We called HP's tech support line and asked them to send us a new battery, but apparently there aren't bios batteries in laptops, only desktops, and if there was one, I wouldn't be able to remove it.

I guess I'm fucking magical or something.

God damn...

batmessiah@batmessiah.com — Thu, 21 Dec 2006 13:43:46 GMT

So, we get our laptop from FedEx last night, and we were all excited to try it out!

We plug it into the wall and hit the power button and the blue power lights come on, then nothing else happens.

Its a fucking brick. Grrrrrrr... I have to send it back now. I tried re-seating the RAM, but I wanna try a few more things before I send it back tomorrow. I have a few ideas on how I might be able to get the damn thing to actually power on for me...